Sunday, May 07, 2006
rejuvenate
and so i spent the entire weekend taking in deep breaths and long naps again. its great to be able to live life now at the pace that I have been dreaming of for the last six years. =)went for the capriccio band concert yesterday together with stacy, sam and elaine (as well as pigu!) its great to be able to meet up with people after eons. talking to all of them, especially the long lost ones make me feel... happy. like how everyone is doing well with great scholarships to good schools abroad. my parents are freaking me out though. they've already start making plans to fly with me to US this fall. crap and i am not even 100% sure that there's the school i want to be studying in. and whatever happened to the gungho streak of independance that i had in me-- to fend for myself the moment i leave my family behind at the departure hall. sighs. looks like mama will be tagging along (for good). just not about time to be all so grown up. yet.
the concert was one of the better ones that i've ever attended anyway. usually band concerts are quite a bore to sit still and through, but this one was really entertaining. it wasn't all that great, like some parts the band was going to fall apart and some times things were noisy and stuff, but somehow i couldn't stop smiling throughout the concert. i'd rather watch this kinda concert anyday compared to the perfectly prepared ones that ms chan always made us put up. i think (as always), the percussion ensemble was really the highlight of the entire thing. watching the juniors, especially my favourite rv ones...really gave me a warm and fuzzy feeling right at my seat. i was really glowing, with alot of happiness and pride to watch them put up absolute coolness drumline thingy and carmen. somehow, i miss the camaderie that i had brought away with me when i left the school band..from rv and hc...the people and even the rooms where we spent our afternoon wasted away, never failed to make me feel like home.
anyway, it was a great break from the traumatising past 2 weeks where i was thoroughly scrutinised by 3CEOs, Deans, ex-Deans, a Joseph Wharton scholar, some Harvard graduate-cum-old-fogey. the interviews were definitely hard. i doubt i will be offered the full ride at SMU. oh wells, looks like i am not the tough cookie nor the street-smart lass that i have imagined myself to be. i feel like a small fry all over again in front of these over-qualified people.
this definitely pushes the case to study abroad - the world is too small for the little girl with big dreams here.. i think i want to be brave/daring/gungho and take a leap out of my goldfish-ed bowl.
ilovetotwirl at 8:00 AM
